‘Is this it? Is this the day I finally figure it out?’
Many times I find myself at this point, tired of living life the same way. Lost in what seems like a never ending maze with more than one way out but every time I think I’m on the right exit, I hit a road block and no matter how far ahead I might have gone, I have no choice but to retrace my steps and try my luck again. It sucks but that’s exactly where I am, tracing my steps back. I’ve been in this maze for so long and trust me there is no short cut. Trapped inside, not able to cry or wish it away. Believe me I’ve tried.
As I’m walking back again I’m thinking:
“I have to get it right this time. I can’t keep doing this back and forth. It gets hard even for the soul. I must figure out what the secret is. I will not rush without a plan. I have made that mistake before. I will not rely on anyone else. This is a fight I have to win on my own. I will not live in the past or in the future. I can only work with what I have now and every minute counts. I’ll take it easy, mind every thought and watch what I tell myself. I am my own best friend.”