‘Is this it? Is this the day I finally figure it out?’
Many times I find myself at this point, tired of living life the same way. Lost in what seems like a never ending maze with more than one way out but every time I think I’m on the right exit, I hit a road block and no matter how far ahead I might have gone, I have no choice but to retrace my steps and try my luck again. It sucks but that’s exactly where I am, tracing my steps back. I have been in this maze for so long and trust me there is no short cut. I am trapped inside and I can’t cry or wish it away. Believe me I’ve tried.
As I’m walking back I’m thinking:
“I have to get it right this time. I can’t keep doing this back and forth. It gets hard even for the soul. I must figure out what the secret is. I will not rush without a plan. I have made that mistake before. I will not rely on anyone else. This is a fight I have to win on my own. I will not live in the past or in the future. I can only work with what I have now and every minute counts. I’ll take it easy, mind every thought and watch what I tell myself. I am my own best friend.’